so...tired... barely...can...move

Today was the LONGEST day ever. It was a full day of school with a meeting during my planning and a meeting after school and then a program at school after school. I didn't get home until 8:00 and have been doing lesson plans since then! I am EXHAUSTED!! I am proud of myself though. I stood up for myself today. I am one to not stand up for myself and to let things go but I have been having problems with my instructional assistant being disrespectful and down right mean to my students and today I got so sick and tired of it that I went and reported it to the principal. I am so proud of myself and hope that things will get better. She is going to talk to her (not telling her I reported her) but instead telling her that parents have reported her (goodness knows I've talked to enough of them myself about her). I hope it helps!

On the ttc front, my temp stayed almost exactly the same as yesterday. I plan on testing Sunday (just for the heck of it) and of course I have my dr's appointment on Monday.

It's getting hot in here

LOL.. I've been singing that song since I took my temp this morning! 98.41! I am starting to have IPS... I know it is IPS because I keep telling myself with my timing there is LITTLE chance that I could actually get pregnant. BUT... might as well share what is going on anyway... so here it is...

Saturday- MOODY!
Sunday- ok
Monday- frequent urination & HUNGRY
Tuesday- same as Monday
Wednesday-so far.. I thought my bladder was going burst if my thermometer didn't hurry up and beep this morning (this is not like me... I do not pee very often), I had a catch in my side this morning when I turned over

Now that my obsessing is over I am going to remind myself that this is all IPS... you can do this as well! LOL! Have a great day!

CROSSHAIRS!!!

WOOHOO~!!! I got crosshairs this morning... why am I so excited you may ask? Because that means I actually ovulated and AF should be on my doorstep very soon. I doubt there is much chance of a BFP due to the timing (although I guess it is kind of possible) but it will be nice to just start over!

On another note, today I have been so exhausted! This week has felt SOOO long. I am so ready for Thanksgiving break!

hmmm

So today I decided to temp just for the heck of it... 98.02. This was much higher than my temps were before I got sick of temping. Could it be that I finally did O somewhere in the shuffle of the nontemping? Maybe... who knows! I doubt it will result with a BFP since when I think it happened there is no BD'ing around. If I did O and my lp stays short like it has been I should be expecting AF this weekend or early next week. Knowing my luck I will start they day of my dr's appointment... lol! They told me I needed to come even if I had started to get checked out.

Next cycle plan

I have decided that next cycle I am going to put less stress on myself by not temping or using OPKs (don't blast me TMP ladies). I am just going to have fun with it and just see what happens. This cycle has been so stressful and in deciding this I have already felt so much less stress. Dh & I have bd the last three days in a row. I told him today what my plans were for next month and he is really stoked for it. I am going to use preseed though. I hope that this will be less stressful & more fun.

I did it...

I told my mom that we were ttc. She weas genuinely suprised. I thought she might know and just hadn't said anything but she didn't have any idea. She was very excited & happy for us. She told me she would go with me to the dr if I wanted someone to go with me. I told her I'd really rather just go on my own this time since they are just trying to figure out what is going on and not really doing anything. I made her promise not to tell anyone. She said she completely understood and wouldn't. It actually felt like a huge weight was lifted when I told her. I am trying to get rid of all this stress one thing at a time...

Dr appointment...

I finally have been able to take the time to call and make a dr's appointment. I have been trying to get ino touch with a nurse on the nurse's line since Monday. It is hard for me to be able to call any businesses with my job. I have a very limited amount of time during the day when I can actually talk on the phone so if they don't answer or call me back during that time period we usually just play phone tag. I have been playing phone tag with the nurse's line since Monday. I decided today to go ahead and make an appointment... unfortunately it isn't for another week and a half. I am really hoping that AF will decide to show up before then... like now would be nice. But if not... at least I have an appointment. I am still hoping to talk to a nurse to see what she has to say about what is going on. I feel that the stress I have had lately could be a big cause of what is going on. I wish I could just say poof and the stress be gone and my body would get back to normal... unfortunately that isn't going to happen and I don't see the stress that is in my life going away any time soon.

I am thinking about talking to my mom about this. I had planned not telling her that we were ttc because first I wanted it to be a suprise for her when we got pregnant. I naively thought it would happen quickly and couldn't wait to figure out how I was going to suprise my family by telling them. Then, when it didn't happen immediately, I didn't want to tell because I didn't want her asking me all the time how it was going. Now, I feel like I need my mom. I am so stressed and overwhelmed with some of the things going on in my life right now and I can't fully explain to her the pressure I am under if I do not tell her this. My mom & I have had a very open and honest relationship. We talk every day and I tell her almost everything. This is the only big secret I have ever kept from her... it is getting too difficult now.