6 weeks!

I am going to continue going by my caclulations until after my ultrasound Tuesday when the doc will know better about how far along I am. Therefore, I think I am 6 weeks today. That makes the baby the size of a sweet pea & it is developing his/her eyes, noise, and mouth! The arms and legs are also buds now! CRAZY!! Here is an updated picture.... the day after I found out and today at 6 weeks!

Telling the World!! This is going to be long!

Well a lot has changed since the last update. I haven't really felt like updating because I have a sinus infection that is making me feel like crud. Thursday after I updated I got my first day of morning sickness. I was eating breakfast and put a bite in my mouth and said wow, I'm full already no more after this bite. Then I swallowed that bite to immediately start gagging. Well, I felt better shortly after that and didn't get sick but then I started coughing because of the sinus drainage and the coughing led to gagging which led to throwing up for a long, LONG time. Thankfully it was a 2 hour delay that day! I decided to tell my team & my principal at school that day. Here is how I told the world on Thursday:

Telling my principal: I went in her office and told her I needed to tell her something before she heard from someone else. She said "Oh no, where are you going?" I told her I hoped to not go anywhere and hope to be there next year! I then told her I was pregnant & due in September. She is very happy for me and got up and gave me a big hug! I thought it was very sweet. She asked me how I'd been feeling and everything! :)

Telling my team: we happened to all be chatting in the hall during planning so I asked them to step in my room for a second. I then told them I had lied about where I went the day before that I didn't go to the dentist. One of them said I know... you went to the gyno! I said yes, and I'm pregnant! They were really excited although I can't say they were very shocked. One of them said she knew I wasn't going to the dentist because of the look on my face when I said that is where I was going. Another said she knew something was up because of how many times I have said that I am tired lately and how I never talked about being tired before.
All in all that went really well.

Telling my nieces: That night we ate at mom's and had my 2 neices over so we could tell them. I had decided I wanted to ask them about babysitting and mama saw a 2 pack of pacifiers so she bought them for me to give one to each of them. So I had them behind my back & told them I had something for them. Lindsay started freaking out and saying I was scaring her. haha! And Taylor looked around my back and said "She has pacifiers. Why does she have pacifiers? Is she telling us we are acting like babies???" I couldn't help but laugh. I said "No, I was wondering if you would be willing to babysit?" Lindsay screamed "YOUR PREGNANT?!?!" and Taylor just kept saying "She's lying... she's lying. Are you kidding?" Haha... when I finally had them where they believed me they were soooo excited and that they were really keeping those pacifiers to use when we had the baby! haha.

Telling the world aka facebook... We knew we had then told all the important people that we needed to personally tell so we decided to go ahead and tell the world (aka facebook). So I posted on facebook "*The Kirby family will grow by 2 feet in September 2011! <3* We have gotten tons of comments telling us congrats and they are so excited for us!

We are so excited and it feels great for everyone to know now. One of the teachers I work with brought me some belly bands & the one I ordered came in yesterday so I may be wearing some of those very soon so I can continue wearing my regular clothes that have gotten so tight already! All I want to do is EAT! I'm soo hungry all the time. I woke up at 4:40 this morning and was STARVING so I had to eat some crackers. Then when I got up at 7:30 (yes I would have liked to sleep later) I was STARVING again! I put on some bowled eggs & couldn't wait for that and had to eat something while waiting for that!I can't wait go to the doc & get my ultrasound on TUESDAY!!! WOOHOO!!! :)

Doctor's appointment

Well I went to my doctor's appointment yesterday and no ultrasound as I expected BUT I get to have one next Tuesday!!! He said everything looks & feels normal and that based on my last menstrual period he thinks I am 6 weeks but will know more once they do the ultrasound. I don't think I'm quite that far along but we will see on Tuesday! If I am 6 weeks they gave me a due date of September 23rd! They also did bloodwork and asked me a million questions too. The doctor kept saying he was so happy for us (he knew we were trying & had put me on the clomid). He said all you needed was the clomid to help you out!! :) 2 hour delay today... woohoo!!

Tomorrow, tomorrow

I love ya… Tomorrow… Your only a day awayyyyy!!! (Yes I stole that from you Ashley on TMP... haha) I go to the doc tomorrow at 2:30! I’m sure he won’t do much of anything but I’m just so excited to finally go to the doctor & hear him say “Yes, you are really pregnant.” I know it is silly but I just can’t wait! Then we plan on telling the world! Tomorrow is a work day so I will be going in tomorrow morning basically just to go to meetings. I have a training from 9-10:30 & a budget meeting with the super at 10:45. Then I’m leaving at 12!! I decided to go ahead and take 1/2 day because they will charge me for 1/2 day anyway so I might as well go get something to eat and take it easy on the way to the doc. My assistant principal met with me today about my observation from yesterday and I apparently waasn’t as out of it as I felt. She said I did a good job so that made me feel better. Resting up tonight and trying to get some work done since I won’t have my work day tomorrow!

Stressful day...

My day started when I woke up to my dog whining at 5 am. I then realized that I was having cramps that felt like my period. I was so upset because I was afraid something was wrong. I just knew I was going to start bleeding & that I was miscarrying. They went away after about 10 minutes & I haven't had any bleeding. I tested again this afternoon when I got home from work just to try to give me some reassurance & the test line was darker than the control line so that made me feel better. I also saw a lot online about period like cramps are really common about this time in pregnancy because of the uterus expanding. Please pray that everything is fine. I am very thankful that I am going to the doctor on Wednesday!!

Of course I then had an observation first thing this morning after I was completely stressed already. I feel like I bombed that observation but I am just so not going to worry about it. I also had 2 of my sped kids have breakdowns this afternoon so all in all it wasn't a great day. I am going to rest up tonight & pray that everything is fine and tomorrow will be a better day.

Appleseeds!

I am 5 weeks and the baby is the size of an appleseed now!! I love my sweet little appleseed. It is hard to believe but the heart could start beating this week!! Still really tired all the time but feel pretty good other than that. Here is a pic of my belly the day after I found out and today. See if you can see a difference. I can although it is all bloat.

Yummy Mexican Food!!

Ok, I believe I am now having my first cravings! We had a new Mexican resteraunt open and we went and ate there last night. It was SOOO good. Today at lunch that is ALL I could think about. DH was like are you sure you dont want this or this or this. I was like no... I want a chimichanga!! haha! It was sooo yummy both last night & today at lunch!!! :) I'm still really tired all the time and my boobs hurt really bad but other than that feel pretty good.

So today we are cleaning out our current office which will be our future nursery. This is sooo exciting! It is almost compltely empty and it is going to make a beautiful nursery!! It is all soo exciting. I will be 5 weeks tomorrow!!!

One week and counting...

I had a long, stressful day and it had nothing to do with the sweet poppyseed inside me. Poppyseed actually allowed me to feel ok today. I was still very tired but I did sleep through the night last night so I wasn't as tired as I have been. Work was really stressful. I don't want to get into all the details but it was a long & very stressful day to say the least. Then it worried me about having the stress and how that was going to affect my little poppyseed.

On another note, I took another IC test this morning and the lines were the same. I hadn't taken one of them since Sunday. I took my last FRER & an IC Sunday and had lines the same on the FRER but they weren't the same on the IC. I know I'm crazy for continuing to test but I like to see the lines get darker. It makes me feel like I'm progressing the way I am supposed to. I go to the doctor one week from today!!! I'm so excited! I am also starting to get a little belly... I'm assuming it is bloat but my oh my this is early! I couldn't button my pants this morning... granted they were a pair that had gotten kind of tight but still I wasn't even close to getting them buttoned. Yikes! I thought I had a little pudge showing with my sweater I wore today and I asked the girl that knows at school and she said she could see it too.. oh my! She said she didn't think she would notice it if she didn't know I was pregnant. I told mama this today and she said once again that she thinks it is twins in there!

Really poppyseed?

Ok, I know the poppyseed is not making me so hungry so WHY am I sooo hungry???? I woke up not once but TWICE last night so hungry I felt sick and had to eat crackers. The second time I just brought them to bed with me. DH looked at me like I was nuts but I was SOOO hungry! Then I got up and got almost completely ready and find out we have a 2 hour delay. Too bad the alert now didn't work and I was getting ready to walk out the door. No going back to bed for me. Then I decided well I will sit down and eat some of this new cereal I bought over the weekend since I have time and don't have to eat on the road like I normally do. So I fix me a bowl of cereal, take one bite, and that bite quickly came back up. Ewww... not yummy. DH texted me and asked how I was feeling and I told him and he said "I'm so sorry we will buy you some diff cereal." I told him it was ok because the baby is just nestling in good! :) I am sooo in love with this poppyseed!!!

We told a select few...

Well... I have been going nuts not telling people. Especially my mom & his mom. I just couldn't wait to tell them. They both knew we were trying to conceive and both were very excited about it. I finally talked dh into letting us tell earlier than after the first appointment. Yesterday the shirt we had ordered for our furbaby came in (it said "My mommy is pregnant and all I got was this t-shirt") so I talked dh into letting me invite them over for dinner tonight to tell them. So we invited mom, stepdad, mil, brother and his fiance. My brother and his fiance couldn't come though. After they were all here we told them that we had gotten our furbaby a shirt and wanted to show them. I also said he was so cute in it that we wanted to record their reactions. Got him dressed & let him go over to them. My mom grabbed him and started screaming and jumping up and down. Then his mom figured it out and did the same. It was great!! They were soooo excited! The video isn't very good but it is still priceless! We then called my brother & put him on speakerphone & told him. He said "I'm going to be an uncle?" haha... also called and told my dad. He was really excited! I told all of them I wanted to wait a little while to tell everyone to make sure everything was ok. That was GREAT!

I started having some new symptoms today. I gagged big time when brushing my teeth. Then was nauseous during church. Then when I went to Cracker Barrel for breakfast the smell of the fire made me nauseous again. I have also peed a bajillion times today. I am glad to be having symtpoms because that tells me the sweet little poppyseed inside me is ok.

I'M PREGNANT!!

I can't say that enough & I am still having trouble believing it so excuse me while I say... I'M PREGNANT, I'M PREGNANT, I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, I'm ok now. I figured you might want to hear a little more about yesterday.... my wonderful bfp day!!

My first and only real sign I had before finding out was extreme fatigue. I have been so tired that I haven't wanted to do anything after getting off work. My eyes have been hurting and hard to keep open. So I decided to take a test... way too early figuring it would be negative. I dipped the FRER & IC and they had a very almost not there line. At first I thought it was BFN and then I remembered any line was a BFP. I had even already gone to my FF account and put negative for the day before I was like HOLD UP! There WAS a line! On BOTH tests!!! I was suddenly extremely happy that I had peed in a cup and could dip another test. I rushed to the cabinet got a digi test and dipped it. I held it in my hand and prayed all three minutes. After the word "Pregnant" came up I was so happy I literally couldn't stop shaking for a good two hours. The bad news was that dh wasn't home. I honestly didn't think the test was going to be a BFP because I had seen month after month of BFNs and it was really too early. So I immediately called him. Luckily, he didn't answer the phone because when I called and told my best friend she made me realize I couldn't tell him over the phone. Unfortunately I already had left a message for him to "call me immediately!" So when he called I played it off. Since I was home all day with it being a snow day I spent all day online researching pregnancy... because I am PREGNANT! I found out that I am somewhere between 3 & 4 weeks (about 3 weeks 4 days today) and that my baby is due around September 25th. I also found out that the baby is now the size of a poppyseed.

When dh FINALLY got home I asked him what he thought of poppyseeds. He thought I was nuts. I then pulled out the digi and told him that the reason I asked was because that was the size of our baby! He jerked the test out of my hand, looked at it, threw it to the side and then hugged & kissed me. I was so happy to finally be able to say the words... I'm pregnant. It is still hard for me to believe. Last night I had a major backache... symptom # 2!!! I also have been peeing more frequently and really hungry today... symptoms # 3 & 4!!!

We haven't told anyone else yet. I can't wait to tell!! I'm so excited!!!! I want to wait a little while to make sure nothing happens but I'm not sure how long I can stand waiting! I have my first appointment January 26th & I would like to wait until after that to tell anyone but I'm not sure I can.

Knocked up for real this time!

Thank you all for following me through my crazy days of ttc. I now know I had a reason for acting so crazy yesterday & for how tired I have been the last 2 weeks. I am pregnant!!!! Those words sound so funny coming out of my mouth! I never thought I would be able to say them! I can't believe it!!! I am still shaking. Also, dh and I had said we would take all tests together BUT this morning my temp went down so I told him I didn't think I was going to test because AF will probably be showing the next few days. I told him I might take an IC when I got up and he said ok. Well when I got up I decided to take an IC & FRER. I took both at the same time and they both had faint lines. I almost threw them away & then I was like hold up there are lines there... and they are pink & it is on BOTH of them not just one! So I dipped my CBE digi & it came up "Pregnant!!" Of course my camera is broken and so I can't take a pic with that & my phone takes awful pics but I took a pic with it anyway. I know awful pic between the shaking & the phone.

Ok

Feeling better now. I really had a mini breakdown after taking my test today and now I feel completely silly. I always say that testing before 10dpo is silly & pretty much useless and then I get upset when I get a BFN at 9dpo with smu. I could possibly be only 8dpo. There is still time for me to get a BFP and I am hoping & praying that it will still happen. I am still not having any major symptoms... tired & creamy cm. I am having a few little cramps in my sides but that is completely normal for me after O. I typically get a lot more of them then I have had this cycle though so not sure what that is about. My temps look pretty good. I know that is not everything but right now that is all I have! haha... Also on FF I looked at the community charts & told it to find charts like mine with the same bd schedule, pre-o & post-o temps and it came up with quite a few charts. The statistics for them was also very good... 73% pregnancy. I was in shock. I however didn't really see any that I thought looked like mine.... who knows! I plan on testing with fmu tomorrow morning!

I did a bad thing...

We are having a snow day so I have too much time at home to think. I had an EPT Digi that will be expiring next month left over from a 2 pack I bought a while back before ttc so I decided hey why not waste it by taking it at 9dpo. Yes, I know I said I was waiting until 10dpo to test BUT I couldn't resist. Now of course I'm feeling down that it was a BFN. The word Not is laughing at me... .I also took an IC and there is NOTHING... not even an evap to analyze. I'm really dissapointed. I know realistically that it is early and I've been trying my best not to get my hopes up but I have. I want to be pregnant. I know a lot of people have been ttc with no luck longer than me but I am so done with it. I hate timed bd'ing.... I hate having to wake up every morning to temp and taking clomid.... and opks hoping and praying the lines will be the same for days. I hate being let down month after month. I know it isn't over yet but now I just feel like it is. I'm sorry for the negativity and I'll be ok... it is just frustrating!

8dpo and no testing!

I always test at 8dpo.... and I didn't! WOOHOO!! Now let's see if I can hold off tomorrow too and test on my planned test date of Wednesday. My chart looks pretty good and it makes me excited but I don't want to get too excited. I am very, very, VERY tired. My eyes burn I'm so tired. I also had some major gas pains this morning shortly after waking up. Please, please, please let this be my month!!!

I am the little engine that could

I think I can, I think I can... wait until at least Wednesday to test that is. It is so hard waiting but I don't want to be dissapointed by early BFNs. I am trying to be positive and remind myself that it is possible I could be pregnant. The last few months have gotten me down so much that a big part of me doesn't believe I will get pregnant. I'm trying to be positive and believe that it is possible for me to get a BFP. I haven't had any symtpoms like I typically do... dh said maybe THAT is a symptom in itself! haha! I have been doing a lot of praying that this will be it.

On tmp today someone posted a very inspirational story about someone getting pregnant that was believed to be infertile. Someone at her church told her to include this in her daily prayers. Deuteronomy 28:4 "The Lord your God will make you abound in all the work of your hand and in the fruit of your body." I plan on incorporating this each time I pray from now on. I am already praying to get pregnant in each of my prayers but I will also add this verse.

I'm hoping & praying to see a BFP in a few days!!!

not sure what to think...

I don't know what to think about my chart. I guess it is still way too early to know anything by it. I am either 5 or 6dpo...I think I am 6dpo. I am putting a picture of my chart on here. You are welcome to tell me your opinions! :) I have had absolutely no symtpoms. I usually have little pokes and twinges and cramps in my sides after O. I've had nothing at all. I love and hate the 2ww. DH told me last night he thought I was pregnant... I reminded him he thought I was pregnant last cycle too so I don't take much credibility from that! haha! Please let this be it!!!!

FF Surrendered to Me!

Yep, I made FF surrender. It didn't want to give me crosshairs but I made it give me crosshairs! haha... I actually just switched to research detector and BAM... it gave me crosshairs!!!! I just looove having crosshairs & being post-o. I am so exhausted which I know has nothing to do with signs since it is wayyy too early. It has everything to do with not being able to fall asleep I've been having the last few days. Ugh! I'm heading to bed now. I'm so tired I feel like I could sleep a month...

Tired & Stressed

I have been so tired since going back to work from Christmas break. It is really hard getting back into the swing of things. On top of that I haven't been able to sleep well. This morning I was so tired I actually fell asleep while temping. I woke up and said did it go off & dh was like yeah... a few minutes ago!

Today was also a very stressful day at work. We found out some of the many changes that are going to happen next year and I for one do not like them. We got a new superintendent this year and he wants to change EVERYTHING.... on top of that with budget cuts I'm still having to stress about whether I will even HAVE a job next year. I was RIFed last year but luckily they were able to hire me back. They go by last hired/least experience and unfortunately being only a second year teacher there aren't that many below me. My only hope is that some people retire. I keep telling myself I can't stress about this and what will be, will be but meetings like the one I had today really puts things into perspective.

I am 2dpo...I think. Even though FF doesn't agree with me, I am pretty positive that I am 2dpo today. No symptoms of course but I did go ahead and start taking B6 today. I decided to take it throughout post o to hopefully lengthen my lp. I didn't want to take it during my whole cycle because the one time I did my cycle was so wacky. I hope this works... I hope I'm pregnant... I hope I don't lose my job... I hope I can sleep tonight. Man I have a lot of hopes right now....

O day!!

Well I had thought yesterday was O day but I had another low temp this morning so it wasn't. I think today may have been my O dip. I did get another positive digi OPK but when I ejected it, I would have called it negative. It was dark just not quite as dark so I'm guessing my surge is now leaving. We did bd last night and I'm hoping we can go for it again today/tonight.

Last night we had the traditional (kind of) new year's day meal... black eyed peas, collard greens, fried porkchops, stewed tomatoes, and rolls... it was YUMMY! I hope it brought us luck! :) Back to work for both of us tomorrow.. at least I will have something to distract me in my 2ww!

My updated to do list...
So at the beginning of Christmas break I made a to-do list and posted it... here is my updated list with what I actually got done. Not too bad.

1. Finish grading papers & put in gradebook
2. Revamp classroom website3. Work on lesson plans
4. Type letter about student
5. Write thank you cards to my students for my Christmas gifts
6. Clean the house
7. Clean & organize office & spare bedroom8. Finish reading Safe Haven 9. Start & maybe finish a new book
10. Ovulate and get pregnant (LOL)
Of course I hope I completed all of # 10 but only time will tell for that...

knocked up!

So I think I got knocked up last night! *woot woot* Haha... I know that is silly to say but I just had this strange feeling while bd'ing and afterwards that it was going to work this time. That this time was IT. I think today is O day. The feeling scares me because I don't want to get my hopes up like I do every 2ww but I also don't want to be negative from the start of it. So I'm going to hope & pray that this is the cycle that will get me a BFP!!

I did finally get a positive on my digi OPK today... it is BEAUTIFUL! :) I told dh that means we would be bd'ing at least today & tomorrow if not the next day too! :) You should have seen his face! haha!

Happy New Year's everyone!! :) I hope 2011 is amazing for you!!