10 weeks & looking kinda preggo!

So I’ll be double digits tomorrow… 10 weeks!! WOOHOO!! I also think I look much more pregnant now and not so much like I ate a big lunch. I have a belly no matter what I wear now… loose or not. Today was a warmer day and I got to wear my maternity capris… they were so comfy and actually fit me which is nice. I also washed all of the maternity clothes today that one of the teachers is letting me borrow. So now I have some clothes that I’ll hopefully feel a little more comfortable in.

I’ve also had 2 pregnancy/baby dreams lately. Thursday I had a dream about the baby. It was a SHE and she was adorable… she had on a cute little dress and a big bow in her hair… she was also wearing black shiny leather shoes! Then last night I had the CRAZIEST dream about going into labor and when I got to the hospital they made me eat all of this “numbing chili” and then I had to wrangle horses. I didn’t actually dream about having the baby. I woke up when I got to the delivery room which was one giant room with lots of curtains and everyone was having their babies in the same room. It was STRANGE to say the least!

Anyway… here is a new pic collage. This is every other week from 4 weeks until 10 weeks. I think I look more pregnant this week. What do you think?

Feeling Down...

After mentioning it in my survey post I decided that I should go ahead and blog about my feelings because I'm really feeling down today. I hope this will help chear me up or at least help me to be able to get my feelings out. The last two Sundays have been hard. It is hard for me to get motivated enough to go back to work on Mondays. I love my job... that is what makes it so hard. I am tired and am pissed about being RIFed once again this year. RIF means reduction in force. Last year this happened and I was lucky to be called back to the same exact position. This year due to budget cuts we are closing an entire elementary school which that alone makes it necessary to cut me, along with 30 other people. They cut anyone with 4 years or less experience. I have 2. Pay ends in August... insurance ends in June. When I was told this about my insurance I just laughed and told the woman I was pregnant and due in September. She then told me I was the 4th person she had told that day that was pregnant. Lovely, huh? While I was told it was "possible" I could get called back I am very doubtful with it being so many people in front of me on the call back list. Plus they said that if they lose the money they think they will due to cuts in state funding they will have to RIF even more people. WHO is going to teach these children? We will have the same amount of children next year as we had this year... how will they be affected by bigger class sizes and frustrated teachers due to having too many students? I do NOT want to look for a job. That is what I did last year. I started calling every school around asking them if they would have openings, worked on applications and then I got called back. This year, while I don't think I will get called back, I don't have any motivation to do this. I would love to just be a SAHM but we can't afford it but who is going to want to hire a teacher who will be out the beginning of the school year when so many other teachers that are looking for jobs won't be? Now, here comes the kicker. Dh has been very supportive and would love me to be able to stay at home. He has even started looking for other jobs that would be higher paying... let's face it he hates his job anyway. He applied for a job in NC and he got a call for an interview. He goes on Monday. We don't know how much the pay would be but think it would be significantly more than what he is making now. BUT we would have to move. He would probably have to start working BEFORE I finished the school year and I am not the type of person to quit so I would stay here and he'd go there because it is too far for him to commute. If it is the kind of money that we think it would be I would be able to be a SAHM for a year... but we'd have to move... sell the house. I THINK I'm ok with this but it is too soon to make any big plans because he doesn't know if he will even get the job. I just feel like I'm in limbo... do I have to look for a job, will I get rehired, will we be having a long distance relationship for a few months and then moving, will I have to get a job there? I have no idea what will be coming up other than in another 6 or so months we will have a newborn. I hate not knowing the future... I am a planner (that's the teacher in me) and I hate not being prepared and I have NO idea what my future holds.

20 questions

Ok, Ashleigh tagged me so here it goes...

Rule #1: The tagged person must write their answers on their blog and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Rule #2: Tag 4 people to do this quiz; they cannot refuse (ok, so nothing bad will happen if you don’t participate but I would love to see your answers). The tag-ee must state who tagged them.

1. If you have pets, do you see them as merely animals or are they members of your family?

Family... my doggy (Winston) is my first baby. DH & I got him after I graduated high school and he has been our baby since then. I can't imagine living life without him in it and it scares me to think that he is almost 7 years old already!

2. If you could have a dream come true, what would it be?

I've got a pretty good life. The only thing that would make it better is if my dh had a job he loved and my job was more stable... dang economy for making teaching such a difficult job to hold on to in this area.

3. What would you do with a billion dollars?

We would probably get a nicer house... I love my house but my dream house is a log cabin! I would still work because, let's face it, I love my job. I would have a cleaning lady & an on call chef (DH and I love to cook but sometimes we just don't feel like it... haha). I would like a swimming pool & hot tub. Pay off all our bills. Start a savings account for our children's college. Give money to each of the people important to us in our life and give some to charity.

4. What helps to pull you out of a bad mood?

DH, my dog, a bubble bath, or music usually do the trick for me! :)

5. What is your bedtime routine?

Get everything ready for the next day, wash my face, brush my teeth, put on my pjs, and go to bed!

6. What activities did you do in High School? If you could go back, would you do the same stuff or something different?

I was a majorette... I also took dance but that wasn't with the school. I really wanted to be a cheerleader but we couldn't afford it. I was not really in to sports... wish I had played softball because I was pretty good at that.

7. What kind of books do you read?

I love Nicholas Sparks... I've read all of his books. I love anything that I can just relax and enjoy.

8. How do you see yourself in 10 years?

2 precious children, a nicer house, teaching or a SAHM

9. What’s your fear?

I fear not being able to afford this baby. I haven't written about this because I have honestly been in denial but I, along with 30 other peole in the county, was told about a week ago that we won't have jobs next year due to the budget. They go by who has the least experience and this year had to cut anyone with 4 years or less. This is the SECOND time this has happened to me. Last year I got called back and was fortunate to get my same position. This year with so many people being ahead of me on the call back it isn't looking good. I have zero interest in looking for a job and honestly who will want to hire me knowing I will be out in the beginning of the school year?

10. Would you give up all junk food for the rest of your life for the opportunity to see outer space?

Nope

11. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?

Pee... lol!

12. If you could change one thing about your significant other, what would it be?

Sometimes I don't feel like he takes my concerns seriously. He always wants to "fix" things and sometimes I just need him to hear me out because he can't fix it.

13. If you could pick a new name for yourself, what would it be?

I can't imagine myself having a different name. It isn't my favorite but I still can't imagine having a different one.

14. If you had to choose between six months of sun or six months of rain, what would you choose?

Sun duh!!

15. If you could only eat one thing for the next 6 months, what would it be?

tacos!

16. What is the thing you enjoy about blogging the most?

Writing what I feel...

17. Do you prefer salty or sweet foods?

Is it awful to say a mix of both? haha!

18. What items are in your purse right now?

Wallet, checkbook, chapstick, baby's ultrasound (I carry it with me everywhere), pen, and I had to laugh when I read Ashleigh had this because I do too... a tampon!

19. If you had to choose between vacationing at the beach or in the mountains where would you go?

Beach!


20. What do you watch on television that you know you shouldn’t?

Probably same as Ashleigh... One Born Every Minute. It scares me sometimes and makes me cry a lot but I still watch it!

okay...I tag

Anne Marie- Pardon my Disillusion
Claire-TTC and Me
Erin- The Kings
Angela- Trying to Believe

Heartbeat!

I went to the doctor for my 4 week checkup today and it went really well. She said she didn't know whether we'd be able to hear the heartbeat with the doppler but she wanted to try. She did and after a lot of searching she found it!! She said she thought it was "swimming away from the doppler" when she couldn't find it. It was 172! She said this was normal for this point in the pregnancy. They said I had gained a pound since my last appointment which was ok at this point. I'm suprised it wasn't more since I eat constantly but my weight always goes up and down and can fluctuate 2-3 pounds daily. She also gave me some tips of some stuff I need to start doing now to help my chances of being able to breastfeed. Next appointment is March 21st.

9 weeks tomorrow!

I will be 9 weeks tomorrow and the baby should be about the size of a green olive!! Friday was a very stressful and crappy day but this weekend has been a good one. Yesterday was a full day between helping my soon to be sister in law set up for the engagement party, my niece's suprise b-day party, and my brother's engagement party. It was a very fun day. Today I went shopping with mom. We looked at nursery furniture and got me a pair of maternity jeans & maternity capris!!! We also bought the cutest little onesie for the baby! Tomorrow is my 4 week check-up! I’ll update tomorrow night with how my appointment went. Here is a pic of my belly this week!!

Exercising?

Well today I was really showing and had lots of comments about my belly! Then I went down to fourth grade and was asked by a 4th grader that obviously doesn’t know I’m pregnant if I exercise. I said yes, I do sometimes. She then said that I looked like I was in shape. I laughed so hard because of how much my belly is poking out today! I think she was really thinking did you stop exercising because you USED to be in shape and now look really pudgy! HAHA!

I am going to check into the prenatal exercise class that the local hospital is doing. I’m not sure what time or day it is… it just says to call and find out the info. I am feeling much better today than I have in a while. I really want to try to get into a little more exercising now that I’m feeling a little better.

8 weeks (give or take a day)

Tomorrow I will be 8 weeks so I figured I'd post my updated belly pic. I figured it would be fun to make a little collage of my progression from week 4 until week 8. It is funny to see that it seems to get bigger then smaller then bigger again. I think it is all the bloating and then that going down and increasing again. Anyway... here is the pic!

I haven't felt very good all weekend. It all started Friday when I just felt so weak and tired that all I did when I got home was get in the bed and watch tivo. I got up only to eat my dinner that dh brought home! Saturday I felt ok at times and awful at others and got really sick around lunchtime. Today I have gone back to just feeling weak, tired, and nauseas. I took a nap this afternoon then felt worse because I woke up too hot! Ok complaining over!

Last night we went and ate Japaneese & it was super yummy!! We have leftovers that we are going to have for dinner tonight so I'm really excited about that!! We went for dh's aunt's birthday and dh's cousin noticed my belly! Haha... it looked bigger last night than it does today! I told them that I will be so glad when I just look pregnant and not like I just ate too much! I hope everyone has a wonderful week!! XOXO!

Your Belly is Getting Bigger!

So today I was told by one of my students that my belly was getting bigger. It was too funny! Some days you can really tell that my belly is bigger and some days you can’t. Apparently today was noticeable. As we were leaving one of my kids touched my stomach to tell the baby bye and another student (one of my boys) said “Your belly really is getting bigger!” I said “I know!” He said “I can see it!!” I thought it was soo funny because he looked like he was so shocked!

Today I have also had a very strange and somewhat gross symptom start. I didn’t know that it was a pregnancy symptom and thought I was just crazy but I looked it up when I got home and sure enough it said it was common during the first and third trimesters. I have had excess saliva. I mean tons of it. I feel like I’m going to spit on people when I’m talking to them and I’m constantly having to swallow to keep from drooling… lol!

I hope you are all having a great week!

7 weeks!

Ok… I won’t be 7 weeks until tomorrow but it is so much easier to take the pic and update on the weekends and since I have been doing it every Sunday I figured I would continue! I think my stomach has gone done a little. Maybe some of the bloating is gone. I have been eating like crazy lately. Yesterday we went to my best friend’s hubby’s b-day party. On the way back to their house (we were staying for the night) I saw a Papa John’s delivery car. I HAD to have Papa John’s so we ordered it when we got back even though we had just eaten (a lot) at the birthday party. Luckily everyone else went along with it and ate some along with me! Today after getting back I wanted something for lunch. I had made some mac & cheese that we had leftovers for. I told dh I wasn’t so sure I wanted that but I didn’t feel like fixing anything else. Apparently that wasn’t a good idea because one bite and I had to run to the bathroom and throw it back up! Anyway, here is my pic. Oh and the lines on today’s pic is because I had been laying down on my side before I took it!

Almost 7 weeks!!

I will be 7 weeks on Monday! The morning sickness has really kicked in the last few days. Thursday it was all day sickness. I felt so nauseas ALL day long beginning from the time I woke up until when I went to bed. Yesterday it was better because I woke up feeling fine but then when I was trying to find something to eat for breakfast I started gagging and had to run to the bathroom. I don't know when I'll ever be early for work again because it always hits me right as I'm about to leave... haha! Oh well!

I told my kids at school Friday. I put up a pic of the ultrasound for morning work and told them to write a paragraph about what they saw. They were too cute & excited!! Later I found out that a lot of them actually already knew (which I thought they did) when one of the kids blurted out "my mama told me" followed by "so and so told me" and "so and so told me" and so on. Over half of the class already knew and didn't say anything! I told one of them that I knew she knew because she was smiling at my belly the other day... she giggled and said "I know I was!" They were too cute. One of my kids who can be the sweetest kid in the world one minute and awful to the point of having to call a resource officer on her (yes that did happen this year) was SOOOO excited!! She kept saying "I'm so shocked" and rubbing my belly. When we went outside she said "Are you sure you can go outside? You don't want the baby to get cold!!" Then during science when we made edible layers of the soil and I fixed me one she said "Are you sure you can eat that? You know pregnant people can't eat certain foods!" Haha! She was too cute!

Oh and I also told my nephew the other day... that was too cute! I told him "I've got a baby in my belly!" He said "COOL!!" He also asked what it was going to be and I told him that I didn't know. I asked him what he wanted it to be and he said a boy and asked me what I wanted it to be. I said I didn't care and he says.... yeah I don't care either!! haha! What a sweetie!! :)

I'll probably go ahead and post an updated pic tomorrow for 7 weeks because it is just easier to do it on the weekend vs when I'm back at school and trying to function through the week! Some days I'm really showing and others I don't look much different than I did before. I think it is really the bloating. I did have to wear a belly band on Thursday because I couldn't even zip my pants but it has gone back down some since then. Hope you are having a wonderful weekend!! :)

Well today I went for my first ultrasound. Dennis & mom went with me. Because I was so early they did an internal ultrasound which was a little weird. Anyway, the woman kept saying that it was really early so I didn't think that I would be able to hear the heartbeat but then she turned the sound on and it was STRONG! I couldn't believe how strong it was to be so early and so tiny!! She said I am 6 weeks 1 day which is one day less than what I thought. Here is a picture of the ultrasound!

The tech also told me that my cervix is tilted. She kind of got on my nerves because she said this laughing and then led into which will cause it to hurt when they do the final exam or if they have to break my water.