Clomid Day 1

I took clomid this morning. I debated between taking it in the morning or night and decided to do it in the morning so I could see how I would react to it before having to go to work. Today I had no side effects. I am trying not to get my hopes up too much of not having any side effects since it is only the first day of taking it. I know more than likely it will be later once I have more in my system that I will have the side effects but so far so good! I asked my dh today if he could believe that I was taking fertility medicine. He looked at me and said "I guess we could have saved a lot of money over the years on condoms & birth control pills." I couldn't help but laugh... I was like yeah.. you are right.

Goodbye AF!

AF has left the building!! I start clomid tomorrow. I have been doing a lot of research on it and I am a little worried to see how my body will react to it. I don't want to have a ton of crazy side effects.... especially mood swings since I will be taking it right at Thanksgiving & seeing tons of family that don't know I am even TTC. They will think I'm just mean... not medicated! We will see what happens in the next few days I guess!

Pain, pain, go away... come again oh never mind- don't!

I'm ready for AF to leave... she has been here in full force the last few days. I think she is paying me back for not getting to visit for so long. Man oh man has she been mean. I was so sick feeling yesterday.. nauseous, dizzy, hot, and AWFUL cramps! That + trying to teach = no bueno! It has been really heavy too. I'm hoping she will be leaving in the next few days. I went today and got my Clomid... I'm actually getting kind of excited about it. I hope that it will make me O like I'm supposed to and make my eggo preggo pronto! I had originally planned to stop trying in October because of my job but this last cycle has put things into perspective. I want a baby... I want a baby as soon as I can so I'm going to do this. I am going to do everything I can. Oh and one of our wonderful TMP guides did a drawing and guess who won? Me!! So I'm super excited to use those tools to help get preggo! I am shockingly very upbeat about this cycle... woot woot! Here we go... clomid begins Sunday! 3 days to go...

CD1

The title says it all...
Here I come, clomid!

12dpo

I've NEVER made it to 12dpo... woohoo!! Do NOT want to get my hopes up but I'm just happy that either I'm having a longer lp or maybe just maybe....

Dr appointment update

I feel kind of numb after my dr's appointment today. He said the c word (clomid).  I felt my heart drop a little when he said it. I'm not sure why I am upset by it... I should be happy he is doing all he can do but it honestly scares me sh!tless to be taking it. I am so scared it will not work. If that doesn't work, then what?

Ok, let me back up a little bit. He said he wants me to wait a little while to see if I start AF on my own or get a BFP since I finally did O. He said if neither of those have happened he wants me to take Provera starting Dec. 1st and then start clomid on CD 5. He is giving me 3 mths prescription of it to try. If that doesn't work he said he wanted me to come back so we could talk about our next plan.

I hate not knowing what to expect

I love to prepare for things... I hate not being prepared. It literally makes me feel like I'm going to have a panic attack when I'm not prepared for things ahead of time. This leads me to tomorrow... I have no idea what to expect at my dr's appointment. I can't prepare myself when I have no idea what is going to be done or what the dr will say. What if something is wrong with me... or what if he can't figure out why my cycle has been so crazy? I am trying to relax and just wait to see what happens. I will update tomorrow night with the news the dr gives me.