Confused...?

Sooooo today I got a positive on my IC OPK!!! YAYYY!!! BUT... negative on my digital  with the same pee. WTH? I guess I will try another digital tonight and hopefully it will give me a smiley! I'm hoping to conceive a new year's baby! :)

Tomorrow?

Will it be tomorrow that I get a positive OPK? I hope so. I'm sick of seeing so close to positive but just not quite yet. I have had a lot more EWCM this cycle than I ever have. I thought because that started earlier that I might actually O a little earlier this time. Now, I'm not thinking I will. Last cycle I O'd on day 18... today is day 16 and still no positive. I'm hoping tomorrow will give me a positive and I will O on day 18 again. That will be new year's day! Our preacher came by to visit this morning and he prayed with us about ttc. That gave me a peace that made me believe that it will happen EXACTLY when it is supposed to happen. God knows what is best for us... and knows when we should have our little angel and he will allow us to have our angel when the time is right. Personally, I hope the time is right like now... haha. But I have to be patient and  know that in God's time it will happen.

Last night my best friend & her hubby came over to eat. We grilled out, watched a movie, and just hung out. It was a lot of fun! We are going to leave in a few to go shopping and then meet up with my brother and his fiance for dinner tonight. I love Christmas break! It is hard to believe it is back to work for me on Monday though. I do miss my kids but I love having all this time to be able to do whatever I want to  whenever I want to.

Diaper Rash Ointment, Baby Orajel, and Baby Powder... oh my!

I did it! I bought my very first baby item today! I can't explain the way it makes me feel... happy, excited, hopeful, apprehensive, mischievous, sad... there are so many feelings in it! DH has always said no when I've wanted to buy baby things in the past. It came down to losing some money and he was A-OK with it. We decided to do a FSA loan this year because last year our medical expenses were through the roof with me having to go to the ER and then having surgery & him going to the ER for kidney stones. Well, this year we have been much healthier and have not come close to spending all the money. They said we would lose the money if it wasn't spent by March & after the end of this month we can't buy any over-the-counter meds... so what did we do but go on a spending spree to buy any and all meds we could possibly need. So we went on drugstore.com and went to the FSA area and little ol' me saw the baby needs section. I said can we buy some stuff for the baby knowing he would say no but he agreed!!! I bought some baby orajel, baby powder, and diaper rash ointment... not too exciting but it is baby stuff!!!!

No smiley yet!

I got my package in the mail yesterday... I won the November giveaway. In it was a digital ovulation tester with 3 strips. I took my first one today and it wasn't a smiley face yet BUT I have been having super globs of EWCM since last night! I also did a regular OPK and it was very close to positive.... it has been very close to positive for 3 days now... UGH! Come on O!!!

You should have a baby...

That is what I heard ALL day today! I had my niece today and she kept saying... you should really have a baby. You are so good with kids. You are going to be a great mommy. Then when her mom came to pick her up she commented on how good my dog was with her puppy and that maybe we needed to get my dog a puppy so he could have a playmate. What does my niece say but... no he doesn't need a puppy... he needs a baby! AAAH! I'm trying... I'm trying!!!!

CD 12

Here is my CD 12 OPK....  not positive but close! Sorry about it being blurry! Can't wait to see when I o this cycle! :)

Merry Christmas!

Last night was wonderful. We had Christmas with my whole family. It was tons of fun seeing all the family... especially all the adorable kiddos that I don't get to see very often! It was a weird feeling thinking that possibly by next Christmas I could have a baby! One of my cousins (male one at that) asked us last night when we were going to have one.... it is so awkward. I don't want to be like "well we are humping as much as possible but it just isn't happening." lol! After Christmas there I went back to my brother's and helped him & his fiance get the kids to bed & set up Santa stuff. That was so much fun! I told dh when we left can you believe we might be doing this NEXT year if I get pregnant in the next few months we will have a sweet bundle of joy next Christmas!

Today we don't have very many plans until the afternoon... we are going to see what Santa brought my niece and nephews and having Christmas with dad. Then tonight Christmas at my mom's. We have already done Christmas with all of his family.

I hope all of you are having a wonderful Christmas!!