8dpo and no testing!

I always test at 8dpo.... and I didn't! WOOHOO!! Now let's see if I can hold off tomorrow too and test on my planned test date of Wednesday. My chart looks pretty good and it makes me excited but I don't want to get too excited. I am very, very, VERY tired. My eyes burn I'm so tired. I also had some major gas pains this morning shortly after waking up. Please, please, please let this be my month!!!

I am the little engine that could

I think I can, I think I can... wait until at least Wednesday to test that is. It is so hard waiting but I don't want to be dissapointed by early BFNs. I am trying to be positive and remind myself that it is possible I could be pregnant. The last few months have gotten me down so much that a big part of me doesn't believe I will get pregnant. I'm trying to be positive and believe that it is possible for me to get a BFP. I haven't had any symtpoms like I typically do... dh said maybe THAT is a symptom in itself! haha! I have been doing a lot of praying that this will be it.

On tmp today someone posted a very inspirational story about someone getting pregnant that was believed to be infertile. Someone at her church told her to include this in her daily prayers. Deuteronomy 28:4 "The Lord your God will make you abound in all the work of your hand and in the fruit of your body." I plan on incorporating this each time I pray from now on. I am already praying to get pregnant in each of my prayers but I will also add this verse.

I'm hoping & praying to see a BFP in a few days!!!

not sure what to think...

I don't know what to think about my chart. I guess it is still way too early to know anything by it. I am either 5 or 6dpo...I think I am 6dpo. I am putting a picture of my chart on here. You are welcome to tell me your opinions! :) I have had absolutely no symtpoms. I usually have little pokes and twinges and cramps in my sides after O. I've had nothing at all. I love and hate the 2ww. DH told me last night he thought I was pregnant... I reminded him he thought I was pregnant last cycle too so I don't take much credibility from that! haha! Please let this be it!!!!

FF Surrendered to Me!

Yep, I made FF surrender. It didn't want to give me crosshairs but I made it give me crosshairs! haha... I actually just switched to research detector and BAM... it gave me crosshairs!!!! I just looove having crosshairs & being post-o. I am so exhausted which I know has nothing to do with signs since it is wayyy too early. It has everything to do with not being able to fall asleep I've been having the last few days. Ugh! I'm heading to bed now. I'm so tired I feel like I could sleep a month...

Tired & Stressed

I have been so tired since going back to work from Christmas break. It is really hard getting back into the swing of things. On top of that I haven't been able to sleep well. This morning I was so tired I actually fell asleep while temping. I woke up and said did it go off & dh was like yeah... a few minutes ago!

Today was also a very stressful day at work. We found out some of the many changes that are going to happen next year and I for one do not like them. We got a new superintendent this year and he wants to change EVERYTHING.... on top of that with budget cuts I'm still having to stress about whether I will even HAVE a job next year. I was RIFed last year but luckily they were able to hire me back. They go by last hired/least experience and unfortunately being only a second year teacher there aren't that many below me. My only hope is that some people retire. I keep telling myself I can't stress about this and what will be, will be but meetings like the one I had today really puts things into perspective.

I am 2dpo...I think. Even though FF doesn't agree with me, I am pretty positive that I am 2dpo today. No symptoms of course but I did go ahead and start taking B6 today. I decided to take it throughout post o to hopefully lengthen my lp. I didn't want to take it during my whole cycle because the one time I did my cycle was so wacky. I hope this works... I hope I'm pregnant... I hope I don't lose my job... I hope I can sleep tonight. Man I have a lot of hopes right now....

O day!!

Well I had thought yesterday was O day but I had another low temp this morning so it wasn't. I think today may have been my O dip. I did get another positive digi OPK but when I ejected it, I would have called it negative. It was dark just not quite as dark so I'm guessing my surge is now leaving. We did bd last night and I'm hoping we can go for it again today/tonight.

Last night we had the traditional (kind of) new year's day meal... black eyed peas, collard greens, fried porkchops, stewed tomatoes, and rolls... it was YUMMY! I hope it brought us luck! :) Back to work for both of us tomorrow.. at least I will have something to distract me in my 2ww!

My updated to do list...
So at the beginning of Christmas break I made a to-do list and posted it... here is my updated list with what I actually got done. Not too bad.

1. Finish grading papers & put in gradebook
2. Revamp classroom website3. Work on lesson plans
4. Type letter about student
5. Write thank you cards to my students for my Christmas gifts
6. Clean the house
7. Clean & organize office & spare bedroom8. Finish reading Safe Haven 9. Start & maybe finish a new book
10. Ovulate and get pregnant (LOL)
Of course I hope I completed all of # 10 but only time will tell for that...

knocked up!

So I think I got knocked up last night! *woot woot* Haha... I know that is silly to say but I just had this strange feeling while bd'ing and afterwards that it was going to work this time. That this time was IT. I think today is O day. The feeling scares me because I don't want to get my hopes up like I do every 2ww but I also don't want to be negative from the start of it. So I'm going to hope & pray that this is the cycle that will get me a BFP!!

I did finally get a positive on my digi OPK today... it is BEAUTIFUL! :) I told dh that means we would be bd'ing at least today & tomorrow if not the next day too! :) You should have seen his face! haha!

Happy New Year's everyone!! :) I hope 2011 is amazing for you!!